comelnye budak-budak ni..kan??

SORRY ! camera dak ni ta de sound plak.. lau ad sound,, bru bestt enn.. ni lgu hndustan au

comel kan,, ni aku tengok anak jiran aku..dak dak 3.4.5.6 tahun wat persembahan.. dyowg dak dak smart reader..pandai pandai..comell.. hmm.. jiran aku  ni nme dye ayuni.. haha,, comell gitu... hmmm.. kecik kecik da pndai kan?? hafal step, hafal text story telling.. best nye !!! sweet.. nak arr ank aku skola kat smart reader kids ni... BAGOS .... aduhh.. ad bnyk lg.. tp.. stuck la uploader... hmm :(

a.w.e.s.o.m.e yeaaaaa

take a look... waaaa.. the pic that has been snap,, wooooow ! nice

 

i want this sardina camera .... want want !!!!!!

intan teruu teruuu

weyhh... tau arkk kau idola aku.. haha.. rindu kau keding... olive olive...huhu.. nak jadi cam kau.. da la cantik.. sporty... comell.. hotty.. famous.. warggghhh sume la... nice ohh ... hmmm.. intan intan ,, bile nk jmpe?? ritu kau xde org nk hanta pulak.. yla org tu da tak dok asrama ,, senang ar mrayap sana sini enn.. huh,,, pape ponn weyhh.. missin u lahhhh heeeee:))

rayer rayer 2011

huhu,,, shoot shoot ! huhu

kem kadet polis mrsm semalaysia peringkat kebangsaan 2011

sumpah sedeyh gilerrrrr ! nk pegi kem lagi !

SoRRy!!!... :(

hey...i'm sorry dear...ary nie bz sgt lha....nie pon free kjap jea...huwmmm...act...sim kad i ilang...nie ta tw lha cmne na contact u....huwmmm...da lha u nie ta slalu onl....susa na chat... :(...ta ad line lg....na txt ta bole...na chat ta bole...na call...ta bole...huwmmm..... :(....it's a bad day lha darls... :(

My DeSiCiOn...

Hye...Coe lw blog nie cm sengal cket..nie first time i wt blog...urmmm...i tkot na trime...Coz tkot kte ta lme...tp..i twu u eklaz trime i...bez sgt time kte meet aritu...smpai i rse ta na blek tw...na ddok je at larkin ue...lw blek...tkot ta dpt meet u lg... :(..engt na mintk u tman i jap while tnggu my dad smpai...tp na wt cmne...u na kne blek cpt...tape lha...mybe lw ad jodoh..kte bole meet ag..kn syg???...urmm...psl gurl b4 u tu...dun wory...i da jnji ta kn wt at u...trust me ea.. :)...hee...act...u ta mcm yg i sngkekn...i engt u "rendang" je..rupenye "lampai" jgak ek...da na sme nan i....hee...thankz a lot bg i pinjm blog u...na wt post nie...bez jgak ad blog...haha...ntah ape i mrepek nie kn??...urmmm..lw na tulis psl i..tamo wt b.i ea...mlz na cari kamus...haha...ntah pape je i nie...nnty kt pontian...tamo noty2 tw....i nmpk...urmmm...i trime u seadanya..ta kesa la u cmne...tp...ad 1 syarat..u pon kne la trime i seadanya...bole????

haha..yea!!...finally cyap pon...huhu...tgok ea video nie...i mean it tw!!

it not my problem actually

im stalking ur FACEBOOK,,, spe tuh,, hmm,,
spe tuh ?? spe ni??  hee,, x patot pon nk jeless... tp maybe i will accept ur love kjap lagi.. tp,,
ntahh.. i takott,,, u nk try i cm DYEOWG tuhh,,, ti u da dpt,, u tgal cmtu je,,
engat im not same as them all.. jagn u wat i... i wat u kang,, tapi juz nk ckp,,, i trust u actually...just sometime,,
ntahh.. i takut (takut-the viera)
da penatt la.. hope u seriess... k !

awakkkk

hope dapat kenal you lagi rapat,,
u, once a BOY is my friend and in relationship with me,,, he's important to me..
k honeyy?? u get that ?? so.. renung renungkan dan selamat beramal ,,
 HAHAHA !! ari ni kite same same.. kemas rumahh,,, cozz nak rayerrrr ,,,
 yeaaaa yeaaaa yeaaa raye raye ,, yeaaa !!! hee :D
hope dapat rayer ngn you ! you YOU !!! thanks for being a shoulder for me to cry on...
IMY , ILY ! youu,, ap ni bgonn lambat agi..tu rr ,, gayott ag 'PAGI SAHUR'
HAHAHAAA .. then kol 4 bru bgonn...i pon bgon awal auu,,, kol 12 !! hmmm..
u kuo beli topup je ea,, jgn menggatal lak....kayh ??
u nar nye enn i jelez ngn you ... pasal ape ??? ti i cite ,,, k

apiz mie .. <33

him

26 ogos !!!!
jumpeee.. first timee ... thankss..apiz mie..dye belanje aq mcd..minom minom...bual bual,, tp juz annaoy kit,, ad sumtink dye buad se kat larkin ue !! ohh , forget it !! yg pnting BRU KENAL DYE,,ABOUT A MONTH...tapi not bad...his nice,,,even dye citer mcm mcm kat aq,,ta pe la,, x kisah la pe pon..you,,?? kenape you cakap camtu..cmne lau i trime ??? you kind to me,, even you know WHO AM I ??
you ni.. suke emo...you for you

Tak pernah ku fahami ertimu padaku
Tak pernah ku mengerti hadirmu untukku
Rasa yang pernah kau bagi
Cinta yang telah kau beri

Setelah ku terjatuh baru ku sedari
Betapa kau kekasih hingga hujung hati
Rasa yang setia menanti
Cinta yang tak akan pergi

Menyesal ku akui tak terima cintamu
Dan kini engkau pergi meninggalkan hidupku
Terlambat ku akui berertinya dirimu
Kerna hanya dirimu sambut cinta
Penawar peritku

Hanya dirimu
Tulus cintaku

Menyesal ku akui tak terima cintamu
Dan kini engkau pergi meninggalkan hidupku
Menyesal ku akui tak terima cintamu
Dan kini engkau pergi meninggalkan hidupku

Terlambat ku akui berertinya dirimu
Kerna hanya dirimu
Sanggup cinta penawar peritku
Sanggup cinta pengusap tangisku

you i menyesal kalau tak sanggup trime cinte you.. 

i'm sorry , i love you

I'm sorry for all what i am, cause all "i am" is loving you. every word, every whisper, every breath and every look i remember. You know I'm so far away from sadness, but also so far away from happiness cause i know you're far away.

All I'm wishing for you is a good life. i know I'm not the one who's in your heart but you've always been living deep inside. warm and secure.

You know since i left you to go in your own path my only friends are tears.. sadness.. and more love.

I know you wont know who am i.. and probably you wont know that this msg is yours but anyway hope when you read it something stings your heart and make it beat faster. then I'll know that you read it and I'll smile cause I'll be sure that it affected you.

It suffocates me to see you with someone else but thats my fate.. i don't know.. you just don't see me, you don't.

i still love you

Iwant you to know that I still love you and always will. I thought I could get over you and that my broken heart would heal quickly. I was wrong. I was only strong while you were not near. One look at you and my heart melts within me. All the buried feelings begin to rise within me and all I want to do is melt within your arms. I now confess that I never stopped loving you. I guess I never will.

Now I am feeling lost and confused. Within my heart I want you so badly. All I think about is you and being able to hold you, love you, touch you, and be with you. I am consumed by my desire for you and I feel lost without you. I know that I cannot force you to be with me or to want to be with me. It must be your decision. I would not want you any other way. I want you to want me, to be with me because you want to be with me, to love me because it makes you happy to love me, to come to me because you desire to be close to me.

I thought that missing you would get easier everyday. It has not. In fact, now that I have seen you again, touched you again, made love to you again, it has gotten more difficult being without you. My whole being aches for you and I cannot force myself to stop loving you. In fact, I don’t want to stop loving you.

Alas, it might very well be my fate to go on living without you. I will not beg you to come back. If love cannot lead you back to me then I guess we will stay apart, but I truly hope that you will love me as much as I love you and want me with the same burning desire that I want you.

I still love you and I don’t want to stop. I want you.

last sms

My smiling angel,,,

why it happens that way?

why it always happens to me?

or i should i ask why im that way...this way..losing...falling...

this is my last message to you...this the last...how many times did i tell you this?i dont know...but just just know that i will be the last...Im giving up counting it....nowadays im giving everything up...just walking into a hollow...i dont know where to stop or where im going to....i dont know where i lost my dreams...who is acting in this movie instead of me...it became a gamble...just start with innocence...then you wanna win...then it becomes a passion..then became an obsession...but after all you spent your all you dont have anything in your hands....anything..i wonder why does it happen that way..and do wonder when will i lose those last several people i have in my life....even i lost everthing just it hurts me....LOSING you...

I feel i am changing....losing trust to everyone....i didnt want i happen that way......i didnt want anything to become that way...maybe im one to blame....Im feeling lonely...have you ever lost...have you ever watched your dream gone in hands....

have you ever loved someone and despite everything couldnt you get a small piece of his heart....have you ever felt your heart dead.....have you ever hugged your pillow and cried all night....

now im just looking at the past

the things i got
the things i left
the things i supposed to have but never had...
just fake smiles & toy victories......
just a big ZERO i left behind my back....
I will never the ppl i left behind
Will never be strong..will never be brave enough to share the feelings i hide or will have her talent or her beauty i wont be flawless..
i wont a be good person either
Everything is now really over
i dont feel anything...
just walking away..
maybe a miracle comes and takes me away
thinking where am i?
or what have i done?
*nothing* will be my answer again...
pity...now my heart really dead...

yes this will be the last message i will never send.....

THE END ..................................

move on

honey..

when u moved my whole world fell apart i had 

no idea what had just happened. For some reason

 i can't seem to move on. i need you but its to late... 

i love you so much. i guess this is good bye.

apologies

Iwant to apologise to you all, especially my current love interest. I have loved you, but not in the way you would have wanted. To the first and second: I have let you both into my life deeply and completely, and uttered those three fatal words. If it is any comfort, at the time I believed it to be true. But I built you both to perfection in my mind, because you were the only two who showed any real interest in spending your lives with me. Then I realised what I thought you both were was a fabrication I created subconsciously, and everything fell apart. I had been loving lies, not you. When second, you realised what was going on, and found yourself amorous affection elsewhere, I panicked before we were even finished, and before I knew it I fell into the arms of another just as you had done, but for different reasons. The arms of my current man. Surely he was the most prolific of you all, being such a change from the last I deified him, I "fell for him" almost instantly. But it is not so. I've known for some months now that I have been pretending all your faults are not there. I have suggested, not insisted that you change your ways, since they seem to cause you so much misery. But I can't expect you to change just for me if you are not entirely willing. Besides, it would be for purely selfish reasons, because here's the kicker; I made myself believe I was in love so that I wouldn't have to spend my days alone. I'm so afraid of being alone, having no one to hold me and kiss me and be ever so gentle, to keep me safe and warm at night, to satisfy my transient lewd desires, to be my companion. Because I feel I will never be able to find anyone else to love me after each of you. I've convinced myself for so many years that my feelings were genuine, but they were only genuine towards ideals that were not any of you. I can't apologise enough for making you fall in love with someone who is probably incapable of reciprocating the feeling. It's alright though, because I will probably end up alone anyway. To the man who loves me in this moment goes my deepest apology. I haven't yet the strength to cut you free, because now I know I will hurt you, and that will hurt me. I am selfish; if I truly cared I would have told you by now I don't love you, and let you find someone who can. But I need to know I have someone for now. Maybe it will be easier to let you down gently now we no longer live close enough to each other to see each other every day. The feeble part of me prays you will lose interest before I have to tell you this.