My smiling angel,,,
why it happens that way?
why it always happens to me?
or i should i ask why im that way...this way..losing...falling...
this is my last message to you...this the last...how many times did i tell you this?i dont know...but just just know that i will be the last...Im giving up counting it....nowadays im giving everything up...just walking into a hollow...i dont know where to stop or where im going to....i dont know where i lost my dreams...who is acting in this movie instead of me...it became a gamble...just start with innocence...then you wanna win...then it becomes a passion..then became an obsession...but after all you spent your all you dont have anything in your hands....anything..i wonder why does it happen that way..and do wonder when will i lose those last several people i have in my life....even i lost everthing just it hurts me....LOSING you...
I feel i am changing....losing trust to everyone....i didnt want i happen that way......i didnt want anything to become that way...maybe im one to blame....Im feeling lonely...have you ever lost...have you ever watched your dream gone in hands....
have you ever loved someone and despite everything couldnt you get a small piece of his heart....have you ever felt your heart dead.....have you ever hugged your pillow and cried all night....
now im just looking at the past
the things i got
the things i left
the things i supposed to have but never had...
just fake smiles & toy victories......
just a big ZERO i left behind my back....
I will never the ppl i left behind
Will never be strong..will never be brave enough to share the feelings i hide or will have her talent or her beauty i wont be flawless..
i wont a be good person either
Everything is now really over
i dont feel anything...
just walking away..
maybe a miracle comes and takes me away
thinking where am i?
or what have i done?
*nothing* will be my answer again...
pity...now my heart really dead...
yes this will be the last message i will never send.....
THE END ..................................
Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life try
- miraan
- a.m.i.r.a n.a.j.i.h.a.h kol me m.i.r.a.a.n or k.a.d.o.k heee :) im candidate spm 2012 ;) account student...bio??? nope...x amek pon.. asl nye nk jd veterinar tp,,, da x,, nk jadi auditor... hmm just suite with me<3 lov number so so much ,, hope u guys will know me with read this messy blog.. daaaaaaaa
