YAAAAA ! im the weirdo :P

Saturday, July 2

I Still Love You, But I Am The Only One Trying...

You haven't been around much lately. So many things have been happening with me, and I've really needed to talk to you.

The other day when I saw you I so badly just wanted to run into your arms. Everything inside of me was screaming out for you, calling you, but you didn't hear or see me. You looked happy, you seem happy without me. When we do talk you always seem so far away, like you've got nothing to say to me anymore

I miss you, I really do. Everyday I wait to hear from you. Everyday I hope and pray we could talk like we used to, but everyday I'm left alone and disappointed. Its not your fault that you have a life and that your busy, I understand we cant always talk, but is half an hour out of your day too much to ask? Is an off-line message or SMS too much to ask?

You don't understand whats been happening with me, you don't know what I'm going through. To be honest I don't know whats going on with you either, and it hurts me. I'm supposed to be the most important person in your life, but at the moment I don't feel like I am. I feel like I am an after thought. Surely I mean more to you than that? I don't know what to say anymore.

Sometimes I feel like running away and trying to forget about you and everything else until I eventually just die.I know there is something very wrong with me, but do you know that? Do you know that I'm not going to be here forever?

I don't think you need me as much as you say you do anymore. Maybe there was a time when you would die without me but now, your living you life and I don't seem to be apart of it anymore. I still love you, I have and always will love you. I'm trying so hard to be with you but I feel like I'm the only one trying I need you, I really need you to be here.

broken heart

ou’re everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I’d love enough to not forgive

And though you break my heart, you’re the only one

And though there are times when I hate you

Cause I can’t erase

The times that you hurt me

And put tears on my face

And even now while I hate you

It pains me to say

I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No

No broken-hearted girl

I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

Oh but now I don’t hate you

I’m happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No

No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo

I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free

To spread my wings and fly away

Away With you

yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby

I don’t wanna a broken heart

Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No

I don’t want a broken heart

I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..

No broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl No…no…

No broken-hearted girl

you have broken my heart and im still running

Imiss you. I miss the way things used to be before you changed. Or maybe I am the one who has changed, expectations wise I mean. I was naive and only wanted to be wanted. I put up with being walked all over but I have made friends who have shown me how I deserve to be treated, and its not the way you treat me.

When someone else comes along you give them all of your attention
as if I am some kind of embarrassment. You tell all your friends,
who are mostly girls anyways that you love them. Do you not care that it hurts me so much,
do you not realise that now when you say it to me it means nothing? You have broken
my heart so many times and I have and I always will come running back to you.

i regret my dearr

I just wanted to write say a couple of things that I might not have expressed to you the way it was supposed to be expressed. When it was supposed to be expressed. You know? You take your time to think about things, without even realizing that you are taking too long, and it just might be too late by the time you've got your answer. Sometimes going on on a whim isn't so bad as some people seem to make it seem. I don't know what kind of world we all try to live upon, but the one I live in gives us freedom. Now unless noted otherwise I am not bound to any one man unless he is, or in the process of marrying me, until then it is up to me to decide the strength of the relationship, and if it can with stand.....

I think we both said and did a lot of things I know we both regret, but make not mistake by my actions, they in fact were correct. I want you to know that I deeply, and truly do love you from the bottom of my endless heart.

Friday, July 1

forgive me dear

last nite,, i call u from 12 until 4,, i regret,, please forgive me dear,,
i x sngaje ,, it unintended,, da tak dgr,, mybe prob with that phone not me dear
please... LOVE YOU sgt sgt !! cannot live without u my dear... please...
i need u to understand.... missin u a lot !!!

it feel better if u there by my side ,, well u far from me ,, and bout last nite ,,
i tau i yg bwat spoilt rite... sumpahhh sorry you !!!
please.....

Saturday, June 4

sem sem -daaaarrr !

sorry bro rembat kat fb lu :3

next week aq ngn salam freaaakk harus bertungkus lumus mnyiapp kan project

fyuhh da rr nk kne shoping brg ag ,, huh ,, wat survey mcm mcm tempat r nih,,

sume florist aq terjah,, get ready seller,,, i buy all,, huh ,,, fulus fulus !

huh, beban beban !! tak habis habiss gi.. huuhhh -_______-'

tensioooonnnnn ! hope everything goin niceee :)

asl kan freeaaakooo tuh x wat hall ,,,da r memacam ... merepekk jekk kne !! huh..

sengal nye salammm!!!

nak gak menyemakk enn ! hee:3

facebook damm

sape siall usikk fb aq lagi nihh !!

Friday, June 3

Epi becomin bday daddy ! love yawww !

Wait for 10 june we’re goin on deck rite ... yipieeeww... but watchout

Im drunk ! hehe ;)

10 june yeahhhh ,,, next Friday !

why ?

Living alone again,,

Cmne rse nye hidup bahagie ekk ?? im wonder ? patot ea aq kne cmni..

Hmm.. aq takod ,, takod sangad sangad ,,hmm

There no one beside me anymore ! for sure ! coz im an idiot ! yess , yess , and yess !

Idiot slut biatch ever ! im a looserr ! im suck ! so tired for being such an idiottt ....

Why aq cmni ekk ?? knpe ekk ?? are there someone can tell me why ?? and explain it to me ,, pleaase im begging ! why ?? i rather die or live like dis,, live lite dying ,,, just the same if im just gone forever in this wonderfull sheet ! hmmm ,,,,

Dont judge a book just with it cover ! i try to be the other person ,, change to be a good person,, but i received a shit ! why ? semakin aq nk brubah ,, semakin hilang ap yang aq ad yang aq miliki ,, knpe nih ?? knpe semua hilang nihh ... knpe x layak ke aq brubahh ,,, mmg aq sesuai jadi setan ke ?? aq xnk laa,, aq nk change myself laaa,,,

Plezzz la accept it,, no more play play .. im seriouss guyss ! come onn .... no more enjoyy with bnde mngarut ngarut ni laaa... aq xnk ,,, dont forget by demi lovato.. ad someone pnh nyanyi lgu ni ,, we’re supersaver ,, then i turn my ipod on.. and play diz song,, then he sang diz song,,, see !! did u forget my dear ,, NO !! yess ofcourse u cant forget itt ,,, but here i want to say,,, please forget it ,, coz i hate it ,, i hate it a lot ... all the past it just a lesson we have learn ,,, just forget it !! but dont forget me for sure,, please acccept my changesss !! even you have a new person in ur life,,, a very very perfect oness ,,, rite ,,, but i hope u never forget me in the good way not because ur NAFSU semate mate k !! ihope sangad sangad !! jjust that i want to say take a good care of ur choice my dearest,,, amin ! gud lux ! epi ending u guys ! i give to KB-LA